It helped me to really see that the business I had been building was nothing of importance in comparison to what I am building in the walls of my own home. I decided to quit my job and it was a very difficult decision to make but around that time I came across the following story. I wanted to be standing at the crossroads of their lives and not just a bystander who occasionally would wave from the sidelines. To be not only present physically but mentally as well. What I really wanted and needed was to be able to give my boys more of my time and mental attention while they are little. A lot of people depended on me at the time and I loved meeting new people but I didn’t need to be spending so much of my time doing it. But during those days and nights of laying in bed, I realized that I didn’t need extra money or extra recognition that my job had given me. I had been working in and out of the home at the time and I loved my job.
But it was during that time, when all I could do was lay in bed and think, that my life goals became very clear to me. I remember sitting up one night really thinking that I would die. I spent 4 months on bed rest with constant pricking, poking and needles to stop contractions and to control gestational diabetes (ugh!) And on top of that, I got the worlds worse sinus infection. I was pregnant with baby boy #4 when I was completely and totally knocked off my feet. I pretty much had my life planned out but then I was reminded that life doesn’t always go as planned and that isn’t always a bad thing. Everything that at one point was so right for you suddenly becomes so wrong for you and everything you thought you wanted is suddenly NOT what you want. About 6 months ago my life did a 180°. You think that everything will fall into place and then…you blink and one second later nothing goes as planned. You feel content and you look at the future and begin to make plans to reach your goals. Ever had that feeling? The feeling that you finally know exactly how you want your life to go and what you want to do with your life. Not long ago I thought I had my life pretty much figured out. (I originally posted this as one of my first blog posts in 2012 but wanted to re-share it with you since this story helped me through a difficult time in my life.) Do you ever feel like an invisible mom? As though the things you do and the efforts you make as a mother go unnoticed? Today I share my experiences as well as a beautiful message from Nicole Johnson about what you are really building when no one sees.
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